Saturday, August 30, 2008

milkman

[ed. note: i wrote this on 5.24.08 but was delaying the posting of it till i could finish transcribing the Nina Simone song. when do i have the time? hence, its over three months later and it's still missing a section, but it's almost complete.]

i know, very few posts since i gave birth. what can i say? the demands of motherhood is not an old wives' tale. i thought i couldn't handle being on call with a career as a midwife. and yet, here i am on 24/7 (and believe me, in the beginning it was 24 hours everyday with very little time for my own basic human functions) at the whim of a wee babe and no substitution possible. or so i thought.

male lactation is physically possible, just not socially acceptable.

i knew this curious biological fact. even made light of it in the baby registry. but it is true. just read this. it's my belief if more men nursed their children, their would less violence, less wars.


there is no oxygen in the air
men and women have lost their hair
ash and faces, legs that stand
ghosts and goblins walk in this land
when tomorrow becomes yesterday
and tomorrow becomes eternity
when the soul, when the soul goes way beyond what life has taken
and there are no more babies born
when there is no one and there is everyone
when there is no one and there is everyone

tomorrow will be the 22nd century
tomorrow will be the 22nd century
tomorrow will be the 22nd century

will it will it will it it will be
it will be
it will be---.
ahhh---
ahhh---

the 21st century was here and gone
and the 20th century was the dawn
and the beginning of the end was the 21st when the 20th century was at an end
1990 was the year when the plague struck the earth
1988 was the year when men and women struck out for freedom

and bloodletting was the thing that was
people said there was no cause and there was no reason and no cause
1972 was right all the way drums and buildings all through the day blastin
right wing left wing
middle of the road...
...
sidewinder back swinger back lash whiplash

race stalkings red stockings
liberation of women liberation of men


liberation of animals, prevention of cruelty to animals, men and beast
flyin, and i'm flyin, flyin things
revolution of music, poetry, love and life
sex changing changin changin
man is woman woman is man
even your brain is not your brain
your heart is a plastic thing that can be bought
there are no more diseases that can be caught

man became the thing that he worshipped
man too late became his god that was the day

that man and woman truly became born

man became his good man became his evil man became his god man became his devil

tomorrow will be the 22nd century

tomorrow will be the 22nd century
tomorrow will be the 22nd century

it will be
it will be
it will be---.

written by Obeah Man, sung by Nina Simone

Friday, August 29, 2008

the politics of milk

when i was a keiki, my ohana wen go to da Havai'i-kine State Fair. there we met LaniMoo. talk about your sacred cows. i can remember her standing outside the billowing white tent where the cows were being kept. an ambassador to her species adorned with her melia lei & haku lei, victorian blouson & muumuu, and her celestial name, LaniMoo was brown-skinned, two-breasted, two-legged, native & regal like the nubile Havai'i-kine ladies in the parades. only she was not really a holy cow, she was a haole cow. and dis heifer had a lockdown on immaculate conception. (they just re-launched a new mascot, her son by "surprise virgin birth" Kawika. given how they fertilize cows, weo the less said about that the better, though mike rowe has a lot of funny things to say.)

basically, milkcows were an invader species brought by the haole plantation owners in 1793 when they colonized the island of Havai'i. since everyone in the world are naturally lactose-intolerant in adulthood except for northern europeans, and hawaii-kine being no exception, i imagine profits were pretty limited. in the mid-50s introduced Lani Moo the bovine mascot so named by a haole kid. then in the mid-1970s they got smart, they started corporate-sponsoring the local youth soccer league and producing the propaganda about cowmilk's benefits. my dad being no stranger to propaganda (and no coincidence, like most brownskins, a lover of soccer) was militant about it. we all had to drink cowmilk. lots of it. my siblings being kids by then and over their (breast)milk drinking days by a decade maybe didnt catch on or get the brunt of this militancy. me being the baby, i was cowmilkboarded. and i came to have cowmilk all the time. gallons. and ice cream. and cheese oh i came to love cheese. i've been colonized by cowmilk.

i didn't stop drinking cowmilk until college sometime after my ex moved out. and then on a foster freeze & berkeley marina date with T. in 1999, i had the gut-wrenching realization that i am indeed lactose-intolerant, a "problem" i share with 95% of adult humanity, that i promptly & temporarily solved with lactase supplements. though there's not fixing anything with ice cream, lactase or no. nowadays its a moot problem since i've stopped consuming so much cowdairy products. and last year in an effort to treat my allergies & chemical sensitivities, i went on a strict dairy- & gluten-free diet. and indeed, my allergies & sensitivity cleared up. so i got lazy. then when i was in that last couple of months of pregnancy, i wanted ice cream and went on a bender. so i had haagen daz on a stick once a day. gotta love costco for bulk purchases.

and now i'm the dairymaid for our daughter. she is six months now and still exclusively breastfed. all 18lbs and 12.4oz of her. pure mother's love buttermilk.

breastfeeding. so not controversial. even our HMO sez mothers should breastfeed at least until 6 months. and i plan on breastfeeding to two years at least.

weo, we went to our 6 months check up yesterday. when our osteopathic-cum-medical pediatrician found out VL was still being exclusively breastfed, he said i should start giving her iron supplemented food right away because breastmilk has low iron after 6 months and no, i couldn't just take more iron supplements as the mommy. well, i took him at face value and was doing my own educational reading about starting solids, and i read in the evidence-based book Baby Matters and on kellymom.com that because cow's milk in formula commonly inhibits the development of intestinal villi ("leaky gut" syndrome) and as a result causes gastro-intestinal bleeding and malabsorption, because of that, formula & babyfood had to have extra iron to compensate for the loss of blood & iron. whereas breastmilk has lactoferrin an easier-to-digest form of iron and one that boosts baby's ability to resist bacteria like E. Coli. and breastfed babies at 6mos+ that are not given iron-fortified foods have a higher iron level in their blood than breastfed babies who are given iron-fortified food. the iron they use to fortify baby foods actually leaches the lactoferrin iron in breastmilk! so the standard for how much iron is "needed" is still based on babies who take formula and are therefore iron-deficient, and then applied to breastfed babies which in turns makes breastfed babies, iron-deficient! out-dated research based on formula companies' & dairy industry's profit-motivated "science". ridiculous.

we very quickly realized VL couldn't tolerate cowmilk. not because we gave her any, but because i consumed it. those last trimester haagen daz ice cream bars were still in the freezer after all... i'm piecing things together here, the puzzle of my digestive system. in thinking back to my dairy-full childhood and the cowmilk formula supplementation i was given the times i was hospitalized as an infant, which eventually overtook & ended the breastfeeding aft 6 months, i remember all the unexplained sometimes bloody gastro-intestinal problems & poor digestion i had as a kid and even now as an adult. i was always having to poo in a cup. and there was never a solution or explanation. a while back, when i was recounting my allergies and chemical sensitivities to my brother, he said it was prolly all the milk i drank as a kid. maybe there's something to that. maybe the cowmilk colonization that has degraded my digestion.

and cowmilk, cowmilk is so innocuous seeming. but as i teased my larger-than-your-average-vinamese-midwestern friend Linh, cowmilk is for cows; drink cowmilk, become a cow. and like a bad joke, her son was allergic to cowsmilk. and it seems there is something to that, even though there is a billion dollar dairy industry which tries to tell you otherwise; cowmilk is implicated in a over a dozen diseases. human milk is the perfect human baby food. it contains all the proteins, carbs, sugars, hormones, biotics, immune defense that a baby human needs to grow into a human adult. cows' milk contains all the proteins, carbs, sugars, hormones, biotics, immune defense that a baby bovine needs to grow into an adult bovine. wait, not just rancher-added rGBT growth hormones, we're talking grow-a-baby-hormones-intrinsic-in-lactation kinda of hormones. setting aside industrial propaganda-driven medicine, societal norms and dominant culture, on an intuitive level, what makes us think it's okay for a human baby or child to consume all the proteins, carbs, sugars, hormones, biotics, immune defense that cows' milk contains? app

with synchronistic irony enough, i came across this 1912 digitized book; Honolulu was the site for a major USDA experiment in standardizing and regulating dairy production because of high level of infant mortality resulting from milk consumption:methods and the more frequent recording of vital statistics people awakened to the fact that babies were ill and dying in great numbers and that most of these babies were on food other than mother
infant mortality and the connection to cows' milk (1912).

we must know that there is something species-specific about mother's milk because we don't consume the milk of any carnivores for example (in addition to it being very hard to milk a tiger). And indeed, we do know there are differences among mammalian milk:
natural food of any new born mammal is its mother
A comparison of mammalian milk from a 1912 USDA Honolulu experimental research on reducing the infant mortality resulting from cows' milk.


Fat Sugar Proteid Woman
differences between human and cow milk

the term breastfeeding itself is a "sacred cow", reserved only for humans, but truly all mammals breastfeed. isn't it wrong that we humans, we living in a Euro-American cultural context try to breastfeed a bovine? and i guess other people are questioning why we as a society would rather feed a baby another species of milk than milk from another mother.
MOTHERcommon sense in 1912

i recollect that when VL was in the womb she would kick and stretch out her legs so hard, that you could see the bump on the top of my abdomen. we were amazed. when she was born her legs were stretched out straight unlike any newborn the midwife had ever seen and she even had to rate VL's leg reflex apgar a little lower for it. a few days later, when our chiropractor Dr. Aaron did a homevisit (his partner Dr. Eileen came for a couple of hours during labor), he noted that VL was having digestive issues and the tension in her back and legs was her way of trying to resolve it. he did an adjustment and her legs instantly relaxed. we thought oh maybe its her newborn immature digestive system, but i immediately harked back to her straight leg propensity in utero and then, like many things, the thought passed. when i had a postpartum ice cream bar, she cried and cried all night. it's not colic. like Linh' son, my baby is allergic to cowmilk protein. and we're still trying to figure out if by extension, she is allergic to beef protein which by some cosmic coincidence i had stopped eating in '03 due to boils and other things, and had only resumed eating last year. even now, some days her digestion (and mine own) is really off. and it seems that i will have to go back on a strict allergen-free diet--no beef, no pork, no dairy, no soy, no corn. we'll see about the wheat.

so despite the pediatrician's recommendation, i will wait until VL is developmentally ready to eat solids (not quite there yet) and i will not feed her processed, dehydrated, reconstitute simulacra of food fortified with artificially derived chemicals aka baby cereal.

Diet is the most important branch of pediatrics Slight ailments of babies as well as more serious diseases find their source in food oftener than in any other one etiological factor The younger the child the greater is the stress to be laid on the proper feeding as a relief from diseased conditions for the younger the child the nearer is it to the perfect development with which the average child is endowed at birth and the less chance there is for the many diseases which come to it later from without
more 1912 common sense about the connection of nutrition to health


i'm getting so tired of having to be our own educator & advocate when it comes to our family's health. i wish the western allopathic modality of medicine as its practiced in the US which pays lip service to "breast is best" and which has become the modern standard worldwide, i wish that it was evidence-based, instead of this janky presumptive "truthiness" paid for by the blood money from profiteering industries. and yes, babies die from this. i mean i know that is my job as her mother to make the best choices for her and do the educational prep that requires, and at the same time, with everything we have to do, it would be nice to have an ally in her medical care...

postscript... i just read the last few chapters of Baby Matters including "the Dangers of Cow's Milk" and "Allergy Matters". three things i learned: 1) "early exposure [under the age of 1] to cow's milk protein a risk factor for childhood diabetes, but 3 or more glasses of milk per day during childhood leads to a quadrupled risk of diabetes" [the author goes on to cite other scientific studies which show correlations between cowmilk and a full spectrum of diseases common in developed countries like cancer]. 2) Colic, ear infections, eczema, cradle cap, among others "normal phases" for American babies all have a direct correlation with food allergies. 3) if the mother has allergies, she is likely to pass on that immunological response to her child though not the specific trigger (mom could be allergic to onions and baby may be allergic to cows milk) and should avoid all potentially allergenic foods in the third trimester. no one ever told me that!

i'm lookin over my life, my health, VL's birth and being, and my postpartum recovery (i had hives! and mastitis!) and understanding it and the human immune system in a whole new way. i'm a little stunned at the breadth & depth of it actually.

the connection with food is so fundamental, ingrained, cultural and giving up something (like flan) feels like a sacrifice and yet, the eating of it has caused me a lifetime of gastro-intestinal damage & hemorrhage and i've been unknowingly embarking on the same path for my daughter. i gotta decolonize my mind, decolonize my diet, decolonize my colon.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

the cure for cancer

Dr. June Meymand runs a cancer center and says breast milk protects her patients' healthy cells, while killing the cancer at same time.
breastmilk can cure cancer!!!

why the heck are we spending millions on cancer research? we should be paying those millions to mothers and socially supporting breastfeeding.

i guess instead of making mama yogurt for VL, i should donate it! for all you lactating moms, here's your local milk bank info:

CALIFORNIA
Mothers' Milk Bank
751 South Bascom Ave
San Jose, CA 95128
Phone (408) 998-4550
FAX (408) 297-9208
mothersmilkbank@hhs.co.santa-clara.ca.us
www.milkbanksj.org

find your local milk bank
http://www.hmbana.org/index.php?mode=locations

and if you are no longer lactating... http://www.kellymom.com/bf/adopt/relactation-resources.html